C-Section

After 15 years of marriage and trying to have a baby for the past 5 I became pregnant finally...had a great pregnancy except for a long period of morning sickness. I read every chapter of my "what to expect" book and thought I knew all I needed to know. My due date came and went with no change...hadn't dilated...any. My dr gave me some options...wait, scheduled c-section, induction. We decided to wait a few more days. At my next apt. which was 4 days past due date my husband and I decided we would go for the induction. I went in the hospital at 7pm that night for the cervidil. This is where I messed up...as the nurse is preparing me for the night she suggested that I take Ambien to help me sleep. Well, the cervidil was placed and a few hours later I go into labor. My husband says that by 2am I am in a lot of pain (around 2-3 cm by now) and the nurse says I can have Stadol so I get a dose. By 3am my water breaks and I get another dose of Stadol around 4am and epidural at 5. By noon I am at 9cm. Things are going great until 3:30 when they checked me and I was still at 9cm. So my dr. says we have to have a c-section. I was wisked away and my baby boy was born at 4pm. The following morning I was confused...didn't quite understand why I had surgery. I had wanted to breast feed but didn't because I was so drugged after surgery and in so much pain. After I got home I realized that I couldn't remember the night and the next day that I was in labor..nothing but little flashbacks. I believe that the Ambien I took caused amnesia. I had waited so long for this great event to take place and it happened and I couldn't even remember it! I so wanted to remember his first cry. It has been 6 months and I still have a hard time with it but things are getting better.