It's so hard making decisions in the middle of labor and it sounds like you had a rough time! I loved this movie for the choices it opens up for women, but you are right, it doesn't address the emotional aspects of having a c-section. I am in awe of any woman that chooses to give birth in any way. No matter what choice you make at the moment. I don't really know your situation, but I have a suspicion that I probably would disagree with you not being able to open up (it's really not unusual to take days to get to 3cm dilation), but I wasn't there and it's your choice and your birth. I think going through a c-section after labor is just as amazing. That's tough and I'm sure you were doing what you felt was best for you and baby. So, I hope you do view yourself just as much a woman and mother as any other mom. And I hope you have been able to heal and find peace with what happened.