With my first son i was induced and after pushing for 3 hrs was taken in for a c-section. I later learned if i was able to move during labor or pushed in a different position other than flat on my back he would have been born vaginally. I felt like i wasn't a mom he didn't come the way he was supposed to. I started doing research from that day on VBAC's, midwives and homebirth. I got pregnant a second time and figured a different dr and hospital would bring about a different outcome. Boy was i right. I begged my dr until the day he scheduled the repeat c-section to allow me to have a VBAC. No such luck and boy did my son and i pay for that. He was delivered at 37 1/2 weeks and asperated blood. He was taken to a different hospital because they had a beter NICU. I had seen him for 5 min the day he was born. My poor husband was going between 2 hospitals to see our son and come back and stay with me. It was horrific to hear mom's with their babies while mine was taken from me. He spent 10 days on a ventilator had 6 different chest tubes and spent 3 weeks in the NICU. I didnt get to hold him till he was 2 weeks old. Didn't get to nurse him until he was almost 3 weeks. He never nursed because he was used to being forced fed. I had the worst baby blues for months after that . I never got to really bond with him. I was to worried about wether he would make it home to just fall in love with him. When my husband and i decided to try for a third we both knew from the get go that a hospital birth was out of the question. A Dr in the NICU told my husband if we decided to have another c-section there was a 60% chance that baby would end up the same way as my son. No way were we taking that chance again. Luckily before i got pregnant i found the most amazing midwife. She reassured me that there was nothing wrong with me or my body. We decided right then and there we would do a home birth in the water. On Dec 31st around 3pm I started having surges. I wouldn't believe it was real since i had been having them on and off for a while. At about 2am i called my midwife and doula they could tell by my tone my daughter was coming. I got in the birth tub and after 18hrs my daughter slid into this world. her eyes were open and she was so alert. I only pushed for 26min and had no tearing whats so ever. SHe was 7lbs and 10oz. She was beautiful and she was mine. I was able to nurse her within the first hour and she never left my side from that moment on. It was the most amazing and impowering moment in my life. I wish every woman would experience this with their first becaus i can promise they would all do it over and over again. My daughter is only 4 months and i already want to go through labor again because it was so amazing. Call me crazy but i loved the whole experience.