I am so happy to have everyone here!
My name is Melissa. Nice to meet you.
My first child was born when I was just 20 years old. I was totally unprepared. I had no idea what I was doing. My Mother told me to try to breastfeed for at least 6 weeks because that was the best thing to do. I did it for 4 months. I was pretty proud of myself, but felt a sense of loss. Her birth was hard, painful and very traumatizing.
My second child was born just 17 or so months later when I was 21 years old. I was better prepared, but was still in the dark about a lot of things. His birth was incredible, but I felt as if it should have been better somehow. I had post-partum depression very bad for a month and a half after he was born. I felt no connection. Again my Mother urged me to try breastfeeding for at least 6 weeks. I made it to 5 months. I just wanted my body back and I was exhausted from running after a toddler and having a newborn.
My third was so different from my first two. She was born 2 years and 3 months after my second. She was a planned homebirth. I was a Doula. I was educated, I was confident, I was strong. I knew i could do it. I was 23 years old. I attended my first homebirth as a Doula, then I attended a showing of BOBB, I did tons of research and talked to tons of homebirthing Mommas. I knew this is what I wanted. I had my third baby at home in the warmth of my bedroom after 2 hours of hard labor surrounded by my husband, my best friend, my Midwife and my Doula. We breastfed right away and the bond was like fireworks.
She is now 12 1/2 months and we are still breastfeeding strong. It has never felt so right. We do not see an end in sight. We will be breastfeeding until she feels the need to branch out and do her own thing and not need Mommy anymore.
I am proud to call myself and extended breastfeeding Mommy. :)