I know every woman's pregnancy is different, but I never really expected to pass my due date and still not have a baby...especially since I was 10 days early with my first child. It's a really weird feeling. I had this goal (date) that I was shooting for and now it's gone and it feels like I might be pregnant forever. I find myself thinking, "Does my body know that it's been 40 weeks?", "Will it ever decide to do this on it's own?". I didn't have time to think with my first pregnancy because labor began early and unexpectedly. I just assumed this time would be somewhat similar, maybe not as early, but still close to the due date.
I'm immediately regretting telling anyone when I was due because now I'm getting non-stop phone calls, text messages and Facebook comments..."Any sign of baby yet?", "Are you in labor? You didn't answer your phone earlier.", "Why don't you just get induced, you're at term.", "Are you dilated?", "When are you going to decide have that baby?"ect...ect. Leave me alone people!
Most don't have any idea that we are doing a homebirth so they seemed to be very confused that I haven't already been induced or something. It's almost like they are worried that I made it to my due date because that just isn't "normal". Most of the people I know have had elective inductions, so they think this waiting thing is crazy.
I'm trying so hard to be patient and put all the negatives out of my head. It's just weird, my husband and I planned this pregnancy...we knew my ovulation schedule and everything and conceived immediately. I guess I just figured our due date was fairly accurate. I've been having uncomfortable Braxton Hicks for 2 weeks now, throughout the day, everyday. As of Tuesday the 10th I wasn't dilated more than maybe 1cm. I had another appointment yesterday but decided I didn't want my MW to check me because I didn't feel any different than before...plus, I was afraid of hearing that I was still a zero or 1cm. I would rather not know. I didn't picture myself still being pregnant by Thanksgiving...but I guess that's definitely possible at this point.
I most definitely want her to come on her own and when she it fully ready, and I will not do anything unnatural to speed up the process. I really hope it happens in the next few days. I feel so ready.