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i have two amazing handsome, beautiful boys. Junior who is 2 and Mason who is 7 months. Both of my birth experiences were terrible and has really left me wondering if i can go through it again.I am originally from England and so i was not familiar with the system over here. I had a doctor when i was pregnant with Junior. I was 4 days overdue when they decided to start me off on Pitocin. I had con…